- The singer, 28, has opened up about her heartbreaking ordeal for the first time ahead of her new BBC documentary Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out
- The star revealed that at the height of her bullying, following Little Mix’s 2011’s X Factor win, she took an overdose, but was saved by her boyfriend at the time
- In the film, she recalled that being labelled ‘the fat, ugly one’ in the group ‘consumed every part of me’
- She chose to open up about her November 2013 suicide bid in an effort to raise awareness of the horrendous effect trolling can have on young people
- For confidential 24/7 support in the UK, call Samaritans on 116 123 or visit a local Samaritans branch, see www.samaritans.org for details
Little Mix star Jesy Nelson has revealed she once tried to take her own life after years of relentless trolling.
The singer, 28, has opened up about her heartbreaking ordeal for the first time ahead of her new BBC documentary Jesy Nelson: Odd One Out.
The star revealed that at the height of her bullying, following the group’s 2011’s X Factor win, she took an overdose, but was saved by her boyfriend at the time.
Opening up about her harrowing time, Jesy said in her documentary: ‘I just remember thinking, “I just need this to go away, I’m going to end this”.
‘I remember going to the kitchen and just took as many tablets as I could. Then I laid in bed for ages and kept thinking, “Let it happen. Hurry up”‘.
A source told The Sun: that she had ‘confessed’ to her partner what she done, with an ambulance then swiftly dispatched.
They added that her family members, a member of her management team and her Little Mix bandmates were ‘devastated’ when they found out.
Jesy revealed that once is was discussed with her loved ones, it ‘wasn’t ever spoken about again’.
MailOnline have contacted representatives of Jesy who declined to comment.
The Wings hitmaker has chosen to open up about her November 2013 suicide bid in an effort to raise awareness of the horrendous effect trolling can have on young people.
Speaking further about her ordeal in the BBC One documentary set to air later this month, Jesy continued: ‘I just remember thinking this is never going to go. I’m going to constantly wake up and feel sad for the rest of my life. So what is the point in being here? I physically couldn’t tolerate the pain any more.’
The film also shows that the brunette beauty struggled so much with her abuse that it affected her mental health and thus she had trouble keeping up with her commitments in the girl group.
Jesy’s online bullying ordeal began when she shot to fame in 2011 when Little Mix became the first group to win the show.
The girl group, consisting of Jesy, Jade Thirwall, Perrie Edwards and Leigh-Anne Pinnock, were mentored by Tulisa Contostavlos.
Following their win, Jesy told how the girls were forced to get social media, with the star admitting the move had ‘completely changed my life’.
She went on to say that once the comments came rolling in, it became one of the ‘worst times’ of her life.
She said that being labelled the ‘fat, ugly one’ completely ‘consumed every part of me’ as the trolling took its toll.
Speaking further about reading comments about herself, Jesy revealed to the Guardian that at the time, she had become obsessed with reading the cruel taunts online.
‘I had a routine of waking up, going on Twitter, searching for the worst things I could about myself,’ she explained. ‘I’d type in the search bar: ‘Jesy fat’, or ‘Jesy ugly’, and see what would come up.
‘Sometimes I didn’t even need to do that, I’d just write ‘Jesy’ and then I’d see all the horrible things. Everyone told me to ignore it – but it was like an addiction.’
In the interview, she went on to say that as Little Mix’s fame soared, the pressure for her to look good affected her health, causing her to starve herself.
Jesy said: ‘I’d starve myself… I’d drink Diet Coke for a solid four days and then, when I felt a bit dizzy, I’d eat a pack of ham because I knew it had no calories. Then I’d binge eat, then hate myself.’
The starlet went on to recall how she’d avoid events that she’s be photographed and dreaded photo shoots, adding that on one occasion where the stylist had bought the wrong sized clothes, caused her to have a tearful ‘meltdown’.
Jesy has long been candid about her experience with body shaming and trolling over the years, after being viciously targeted when she was a contestant on The X Factor 2011.
She memorably broke down during the competition as she discussed how hard it had been dealing with negative comments from complete strangers.
Speaking in the VT at the time, she said: ‘People are writing a few nasty comments and it has just got to me a little bit.
‘When you’ve got your own insecurities and then when people go and tell you and write them on websites for everyone to see it just makes you feel really rubbish.
‘Being in a girl group with three beautiful girls who are a lot slimmer and smaller than me… and obviously I know I’m a lot bigger. I find it really hard when people publicise it on Twitter.’
The turning point came in February 2014 when, while on Devi Lovato’s tour where the band where a supporting act, Demi’s dancers advised her to delete Twitter, likening it to a book filled with ‘loads of nasty things’.
Little Mix have since gone on to become one of the biggest ever girl group’s in the UK, scoring number one hits including Wings, Black Magic and Shout Out To My Ex.
Following her ordeal, Jesy has transformed her life and has since found happiness with Love Island star Chris Hughes.
Jesy took to Instagram on Sunday to warn her fans about the contents of her documentary, explaining that ‘people are going to be quite shocked.’
Commenting on the post, her partner Chris then shared a message of support which read: ‘Well done Jess, you’re an amazing girl. You should forever be proud of yourself and all you’ve come through and achieved.’
For confidential 24/7 support in the UK, call Samaritans on 116 123 or visit a local Samaritans branch, see www.samaritans.org for details.